“i’m so sorry i walked away when i did.
there are so many things that i should have done better,
or even said.
you were good to me,
and i thank you for the time we shared together.
when you find your next person,
don’t look for me in them—
let them show you new ways to feel love,
and love them for who they are.
i’m so sorry for all the pain i caused you.
my heart broke too
when i gave up on us.
i’m thankful we can still be in each other’s lives.
you’ll always have a part of me,
and a place in my heart.”
my “anonymous” submission to @wnrsfinalnotes
almost five years later,
and i’d like to believe
that i’ve helped others heal
by reading words they longed to hear.
i’d like to believe
that i gave someone closure.
looking back now,
it was a bit selfish of me to write what i did.
i knew saying those words would ruin you,
ultimately destroying your chances
of finding love again.
is it cruel of me to say
i wish you well
while knowing
you will never find someone like me again?
almost five years later,
and you still haven’t found someone
to replace me.
almost five years later,
and i—
well shit,
this is a bit contradictory,
but i have grown so much,
and what have you done?
i heard through the grapevine
you did a complete 180.
you became more violent,
you resorted back to old, bad habits,
and the cherry on top?
who you are now
could never be loved
by who i was then.
now i look back to the times i cried,
sobbed in front of you,
asking for reassurance
that you’d stand by my side,
that you’d be firm in my choices,
that you’d respect me
and honor me
more than that of your family.
thank god
we never got married
and had a family together.
i would have been silenced by now.
i would have no autonomy now.
i would be nothing
but an empty shell of myself.
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